She had a chance to be with a man who only cared for one woman in his life, and she should've stopped telling her self what if he's this and that, She had to many demons in the closet from a previous relationship,to bad that carried over into ours.
I cannot tell you her real name for her own privacy. If she is who I think she is then we were going to get married back in 2006 when I lived in Portland Oregon. funny she used to get on my case about porn and now I see her doing it, two songs come to mind whenever I see her the first is total eclipse of the heart when we were together, And it must've been love when she left me.